I was searching for poetry and literature in Oregon, came across this from 1995: Folkloric Significance of Abduction Narratives, written by moi.
Content Description: Using Thomas Bullard’s structure of UFO abduction narratives as an object of analysis, this paper looks closely at UFO lore and makes comparisons with Greek mythology.
Long time ago…
More from my found UFO notes from decades ago . I had forgotten so much of these experiences. Is “forgotten” the right word? How can a person forget these types of things? Maybe suppressed might be a better word. Below are two journal entries. Slightly edited for clarity, names have been changed, etc.
April 1991/Eugene, Oregon
Meditating the night before I met with Diane and George. I had an abrupt “waking dream” (I call them “mind post cards now) — I am awake, but having a vision, transported somewhere. I’m about ten years old in the dining room of my childhood home in Los Angeles. I see a man, in gray, squatting on the floor. He’s busy doing something, and there are about four or five steel boxes about the size of bread boxes near him. They have lights on them, some of them are flashing; yellow, green, blue, red. This man is small with blondish- red hair and he’s human — almost. He seems three quarters human and one quarter something else. He suddenly looks at me, and I get such a hit of hostility and anger from him! It’s obvious I am not supposed to be here, not supposed to see him. I get the sense in a few moments he’ll be gone; I just happened upon him early, too soon. I’m a little scared and well aware of his feeling I shouldn’t be here, but I’m also angry at him! This is my house! My dining room! I “wake-up” snap out of it is more accurate, for I wasn’t alsleep — as if someone’s turned the switch off and the “movie” is gone. I feel very uncomfortable.
May 1991/Eugene, Oregon
First UFO Study and Support Group at the library. Put up three flyers, about twelve people showed up. Good meeting — our agenda is to not have one. Research, study, compare notes. A couple showed up with their daughter who was about eleven. The daugher had heard voices all her life, and is in counseling. Diana and George (not their real names) really felt for her and felt as if we’ve seen her, or know her, somehow. The mothter seemed receptive — knew a little about stones and crystals. Diane upfront about her Wiccan, pagan path. No one batted an eye. I was slightly open regarding that.
The mother now tells me she feels Diane is “bringing demons” to her, into her house, because of her “witchcraft.” Discouraging. Odd, too, because she was very open and told me she’s glad we had the meeting and wants to meet again, but not if the meeting takes place at Diane’s.
One man who attended told a story of seeing a creature/visitor/intruder/alien/forgein other with witnesses. This creature was standing on the sidewalk, daytime. A definite negative presence. While he and the people he was with saw the creature, those passing by did not.
The next night, as I was leaving work, opening my car door, I heard a voice inside/outside my head. (to my left, by my left) (note: when I do encounter spirit voices it is always on my left) and I told myself it was just the sound of the car door opening. Two “words” came through. I don’t remember what they were.
Last night, I heard voices again. And an odd thing: eyes closed, suddenlty shapes taking a life of their own and forming into the black eyes, and I felt a presence (to my left.) I opened my eyes suddently, did not see anything, but really felt “it” — before opening my eyes I said “I don’t want you here!” and it left. On my way to the meeting at Diane’s when the phone rang — no one there. Diane saw a UFO the next morning. That night her oldest son had an emergency regarding his hand, he also gets frequent nose bleeds. (note: why I wrote that last sentecne at the time I don’t know, must have felt it was related.)
What’s interesting about these experiences is that they happened after my orange orb sighting. Eugene and surrounding areas were full of UFO sighitngs; many friends, “believers” and non-believers, were seeing things. Local media reported on these sighitngs. I was having an incredible amount of synchronicities, precognitive episodes, my own sightings, “visions” during meditation and out of body experiences.
It seems the sighting of the orb opened up something within me that has been there all along.
I can’t take any single ufo experience out of context and hold it up to self-reflection, analysis, exploration, and not think it’s unrelated to all my other similar experiences. That’d be silly.
Yet I do. Not on purpose; I just get lost sometimes. For example, my orange orb sighting. What I call my “anchor” sighting. Even though the orange orb sighting was not the first, or the last, it was the one that threw me down the rabbit hole. Handed me the blue pills and the red pills.
So when thinking of the orange orb, I consider many possibilities. Plasma being one of them. Okay, let’s take plasma. Big ball of electrical naturally occurring terrestrial stuff. So far, simple. Except…
This orange ball of lit-from-within stuff was intelligent. Sentient. Followed me. Seemed to be waiting for me. Played with me. Seemingly, was the cause of, or related to the cause of, missing time, and classic ufo dreams. (Paralyzed, bright white beam of light, unseen aliens…)
Still, let’s suppose the orange orb was not an alien other, but a natural earth based thing. That maybe caused me to think such things. Or, was indeed the cause of such things. Some type of highly intelligent, aware “thing” right here on earth that for whatever reason, connected with me that night.
Which is a worse situation? An alien from outer space, another planet, or, something right here existing next to us? Something capable of manipulating us? That can cause a sense of missing time, and more.
I am sure there are things like that afoot. No doubt about that — there are non-human, intelligent entities that have nothing to do with outer space right here, messing with us, interacting with us.
Whether or not the orange orb belongs in that category, or the aliens from space category, I’m not quite sure. But I also am convinced that aliens exist as well; that, and the afore mentioned context. All those other ufo encounters, going back to childhood. So there is a definite there there. I can’t hold up the orange orb experience and disconnect if from the other ones. That doesn’t prove anything ET-ish of course.
So, which is worse, if “worse” is the right word? Aliens from outer space, or some earth bound energy? I’m not sure. Just asking.
Well, as an “ancient astronaut theorist” fan, I take exception.
The History channel’s Ancient Aliens program loves to invoke variations of the following:
“As Ancient Alien theorists believe…” as if all of us who accept that aliens from literal eons ago planted us here, or, messed with us, or, … well, there are endless possibilities. The point is, yes, aliens, as well as ultra-terrestrials and — who knows what all non-human else — had their way with us. This belief does not mean that I accept every answer/theory/opinion/belief put forth by the pundits on Ancient Aliens.
Some of those pundits are thoughtful, and simply offering up ideas and speculations. Others are intoning theories as facts. And, one of my personal pet peeves in all aspects of my life — regardless of the hat I may be wearing at the time — being included in something I had no say in. As in, for example, work. “Well, we agree that staff should, from now on…” Excuse me, “we?” I don’t recall being asked, and I certainly don’t fucking agree. Passive aggressive manipulative tactic, that.
So, while I do believe the aliens have been around, and in fact, responsible, for the us that is now us, I also don’t believe every damn theory that comes along. And while aliens, as in from outer space, literal ETs, there are also entities about and afoot that are from right here. Within earth, parallel to us, co-existing in some sort of near-by dimension, and outer space has nothing to do with it. The two (or three or eleventh-hundred) exist at the same time, all playing their particular game.
Nick Redfern, who’s latest book, The Roswell UFO Conspiracy, is causing much ado, will be a guest tonight on Coast to Coast.
Speaking of Nick’s new book — which I haven’t read yet, but plan to of course — it’s funny, in a typical UFO Land kind of way, how much controversy his book has caused. (The Roswell UFO Conspiracy is a sequel to Body Snatchers in the Desert.)
I have no idea what happened at Roswell, and aliens crashing their spaceships on a ranch seems possible. So do heinous acts by governments. The first, true folklore. (Which does not mean it isn’t also true.) But it’s a classic narrative of aliens in the desert, and has become a part of popular culture. Everyone knows what you mean when you cite Roswell, regardless of acceptance of such things as aliens from space. The latter, well, that’s more troublesome. People, including many UFO researchers, don’t want to go there. They don’t want to get deep into dark conspiracies. I mean, good god, no one wants to even hint they’re an Alex Jones. Also, many a UFO researcher is, bewilderingly, politically conservative, and actually trusts the government.
The truth is the truth, be it aliens or government (ours, some other, …), or private technologies as in global illuminati cabal types. Whatever the answer to Roswell, it is important we keep ourselves open, and be willing to really see the truth when, and if, it arrives.
Redfern himself writes about reactions to his book at Mysterious Universe: When Ufologists Turn on Ufologists.
I don’t know if Redfern’s book is close to any truth or not. But at least he’s offering us something new and we need to be willing to adjust the ways we consider what happened at Roswell.
MUFON member — not just a member but “multi state director” John Ventre posted fearful racist posts on his Facebook page. Sad to see anyone post such paranoid and ignorant rantings, and it brings up questions concerning UFO research when it comes to a public figure involved in this area.
Why would this concern anyone? After all, he has a right to his opinion, his personal views are his and not reflective of MUFON. In fact, MUFON has issued an
apology covering -one’s- collective -asse response.
To be fair, in the comments section, MUFON has posted that Ventre’s books have been removed from MUFON, and he has been disinvited from the 2018 MUFON Symposium, but, he has been “replaced as a Journal columnist” [MUFON.com] So it’s questionable how much MUFON cares. In fact, the following statement from MUFON smacks of an apologist stance on MUFON’s part, as author Robbie Graham pointed out on their site in the comments section:
Jan Harzan’s official statement here is an absolute disgrace. “Who is worse,” he asks, “the posters posting or the haters hating?” In the context of this issue, he’s actually implying that those who stand up to racism are as bad as (or worse than) the racists themselves, with the racist being merely a “poster” and the anti-racists being “haters.” He should be thoroughly ashamed of himself. Utter disgrace. If Harzan represents MUFON, then MUFON is a joke, and a sick one at that. (Robbie Graham, comments section, MUFON.com)
Ventre’s opions affects research and MUFON as well as the rest of us living in the fringe, and we should care about this. (Many of us do care, for example, Lon Strickler, of Phantoms and Monsters, has spoken out about this, among others. ) This goes beyond someone’s hateful views on race. If Ventre feels this way, how do his feelings affect his research? When investigating a case involving people of a class, race, religion or gender one has bias towards, these prejudices affects the quality of research.
David Jacobs, whose bizarre, off the rails misogynistic treatment of Emma Woods has been a wildly surreal contribution to UFO Land’s history, yet he is still accepted — including by MUFON — and support for Jacobs continues.
If these researchers want UFO research to be taken “seriously” by the mainstream and the infrastructure and institutions, these behaviors cannot continue. If certain professions demand that individuals within those professions be held up to a higher standard (and I do have issues with that assumption) , and, if some UFO researchers and pundits push for acceptability, then they should demonstrate those higher standards.
Of course, UFO research, like all aspects of paranormal/supernatural/Fortean things/conspiracy and other fringe dwelling topics will never be taken seriously by anyone in the mainstream. That fact, however, does not give those who blithely show off their racist and sexist beliefs the excuse they’re looking for to continue to do so.
One last thought: it does not matter how long ago this took place; the discussion needs to keep going, (as with Jacobs and all the aftermath) — it is not a forgotten, “get over it” type of thing.
Yikes and good great Goddess, I hate the font for the header here. And I can’t seem to fix it. When I first set this up, the font was being reasonable. While in the midst of doing something or another with the customize section, the header literally did a sort of bleep-jump-jiggle thing, and switched fonts on me.
The current font style seems to mock the very essence of The Orange Orb. Which, by the way, you can visit the original “real” Orange Orb on blogger.
Little update: After posting this, saw on Facebook from friend and UFO scholar Scott Santa, that Ancient Aliens didn’t discover this — the existence of Rudloe Manor has been known for a long time. Timothy Good, author of Above Top Secret, addressed this years ago. A book that I’ve read, of course, but many years ago, and clearly, forgot all about it. Still, it was a good episode for those who have not read Good’s book, or, who simply suffer from occasional bouts of senior-moment brain.
Last night’s episode of Ancient Aliens:The Mystery of Rudloe Manor was pretty good. Nice to see an Ancient Aliens where there wasn’t a rehashing of the already rehashed ‘aliens from millions of years ago had seeded us’ … not that I don’t believe that, I do, (yes, I do) (in part) but enough already.
Refreshing and surprising. I hadn’t known of the underground chambers in Wiltshire, England at Rudloe Manor. From the Ancient Aliens site, a bit from the blurb:
In the southwest corner of the Wiltshire, England countryside lies the mysterious structure known as Rudloe Manor. On the surface, it appears to be nothing more than a quaint English manor house, but researchers have argued for years that it has been the epicenter of British research into UFOs since World War II. British Ministry of Defence (MOD) insiders claim that an astounding 2.2 million square feet of vast caverns divided into many smaller chambers lie buried underneath Rudloe Manor (Ancient Aliens)
Watching the program last night, it seemed to me a safe theory to suggest that crop circles are the work of some shadowy black ops faction. Not aliens, not earth fairies, not Doug and Dave. Not even mating hedgehogs. Many disagree with me on this including many a UFO researcher I respect. But I am still convinced that some governments — certainly including our own — have been manipulating technologies and energies of non-human origin for their own agendas.